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Sabishii no Mitsukai (lonely angel)


Saturday, March 09, 2002

jase called me on his dad's cell phone and woke me up. good thing too. he asked where dad got his PDA (dad said jay should get one for his b-day) and i told him it's at compUSA. anyway, he woke me up from my nap, and his voice is always great to wake up to...

poor cait...

anyway, we have patio furniture..
mr navarra is such a dork in this picture. he's the one on the far right.
The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz
The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

jase made me import this song to my comp last night...

Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight
I'll put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light
Just don't forget to think about me
And I won't forget you
I'll write you once a week she said
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything
But I'd go through hell for you and
I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's and ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me
I'll think about the times
She kissed me after class
And she put up with my friends
I acted like an ass
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?

I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's and ugly place, but you're so beautiful..

(repeat 3x)

omg... -caught off guard- this is why i love him so much...

Very cute, very pink, and very feminine. That's you.

Find your inner rubber ducky.

i'm all better ^-^ now i shall off to do homework x.x

Friday, March 08, 2002

he just left about 10-ish minutes ago...

we held hands during the movie, and i think grammy saw us... oh well, she won't say anything.

after, jase and i had ice cream, went to my room and talked (snuck a kiss too)...

he talked to dad for about an hour lol... something's going on and they won't tell me...

ack, my cramps are getting worse... it's hard to type... night all...

we're watching the full version of The Last Of The Mocicans (sp?). woot! grammy's gonna be here, but whatever.


we were confused about the plans, so i went to dad, and i was like “i’m confused.” “no, you’re just emily” “shut up!” jase heard all of that and started laughing so i told him to shut it. lol he likes my dad’s sense of humor cus it’s like his lmao (-bounce!-) anywayssss he’s coming over at 7.. so i gotta get my butt buisy... uh.. he’s gonna ask dad about prom as if i don’t know already, but whatever... i’ll probably go! wheee!!


and after i got off the phone with him, i was sooo hyper.. like i was a teenybopper, and i still am hyper!!

you’re love is all i think about...

[Kylie Minogue - Can’t Get You Outta My Head]

Thursday, March 07, 2002

"Make a girl cry, and you'll pay for it later" - Yohji from Weiß Kreuz.

it's good advice for all you males out there... (and my dad wonders why pranks are pulled after he yells at me ... [i don't take his yelling well])

jase called again, and we set a time for tomarrow, though he probably won't come because he's sick. so i'll probably see him at spf... ^_~
he called twice this afternoon and he's gonna call again after Tae Kwon Do!!! -squeel-

i love you jason..

Wednesday, March 06, 2002

he called twice this evening... i realized that my love for him runs deeper than i thought.. and this is why i'm so upset..

i realized that he's become my best friend as well as my lover... i can tell him anything, no matter how stupid or emarrassing..

-eyes start to tear up- he knows that spf has become "our time". this time though, we'll be riding in a car and we'll be able to hold eachother... and he might have to miss it cus of lou's brothers.. he asked if i was ok with it, and he could tell i wasn't though i said yes.. "are you gritting your teeth?". i nearly came close to crying with him on the phone, and i think he was ready to too... (i've come close before, but that was before he knew mw so well)... my God... please no... and he might not be able to watch a movie at my house friday..

-tears start to spill over- it's fuckin hard enough not seeing him during the week and seeing him for about 3 hours each weekend (on average)... we don't even get to really show eachother like kissing... we can't cuddle, hug too often, hold hands, kiss, and say that we love eachother in person that often.. it's rare... and whenever we get the opportunity, it feels like seconds instead of minutes (or hours).. i'm gonna stick with it though, because i know we can get through everything... hell, he's going to ask my dad if he can take me to the prom, and that takes a lot of guts... i think we'll get through this and spring break alright... we might be bruised up a bit, but i think we can manage...

i'm just gonna go off and let it all out now...

Tuesday, March 05, 2002

he called today... and... i'm not off the net yet untill i get my new e-mail addy set up... oy... but still, i'm all good ^-^

jase's car had to be jumpstarted to go to school and then to go home ;-; now i feel bad for making fun of it (it's a ford, and it was made 14 years ago... and i kinda have a right to cus it's muh b/f's! ^-^;;) but he doesn't know if it's the battery or the other thing he said (i don't know too much about cars >_>;; ). oy. so he had to have brian come pick him up for running this afternoon...

my knee is starting to hurt a lot again.. damn thing doesn't like me and it's part of my freakin body! well Ms. Right Knee, you'll just have to live with meh! bleh. i think it's cus i abused it playing soccer, working out in TKD and having flat feet all at the same time. i think cheerleading may have had a bit of a role...

but i fell in gym today because of it, and eddie laughed at me and said some mean things and i got all up in his face about it ^_^;;; so did kate and nicole! -loves them- and when he came into the cafe, nicole and i got up in his face again and said that he shouldn't talk to girls that way. i also got to him in the lunch line (i didn't go into his on purpose) and the other kate was like "you make friends fast"

sarah b is on the phone. oy. ok.. she's off. i've typed for 20 minutes! wow -amazed with self-

Monday, March 04, 2002

ok, everything's better now cus my love came on.. he calmed me down considerably... now i can go to bed happy and without tears...

...though i'm so pissed at stephie for lying to him that i took off the bracelet and necklace and i refuse to put them back on till she tells him she lied, apologizes to him and me and basically begs forgiveness because that just wasn't right.
my life SUCKS now! i can only have e-mail on a COX server, not my usual web mail!! #$%#$!! so, my e-mail addy will be changing AGAIN. but, it's better than nothing... i can still talk to my love ^_~

but, my jason called from a payphone at 7:55... i was a frikkin confirmation... x.x that was the first time he's called all day and i missed it!!! earlier, nasal said he was online.. damnit...

i want to break down in tears, and i think i'm going to, because i missed him more than usual today...

A foxy geek (^_~) and her life.. "...It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride. Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright..." [Jimmy Eat World - The Middle]


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